It's only skin

It's only skin when you leave the one you love behind
It's only skin when you're burning your skin at night
Alone is what seems best
But in the coldness of dreams, Your room is your demise.

It's only skin when the one you love cheats on you
That he touches her the same way you touched her.
And knowing this, being alone seems best
But in the heat of a nightmare, Your room is your horrible reality.

It's only skin when you die
And nothing more
Remembered as a friend and lover that was
Skin has seen it all.

It's been a long night

Hiding behind my cigarettes running through the storms in my mind
Passing the pillars of virtue and morality still running in fear
Im trying to listen to your voice, to guide me through the marvel climb
I'll be there sooner than ever before you forever disappear.

I'm losing my grip on this piece called loving
I'm eating all the darkness hoping it goes away
Would you ever thought that these thoughts are rotting?
This piece will go into the graves.

Love of my dreams

Enough with feeling so betrayed and heart broken
Wipe the tears off those sick little eyes
Give your heart time to heal and mend
Let your lover's last fuck up be your final goodbye.

Remember how the rapture of hate was your only friend
You had a heart so cold that always fought to defend
The mind that was staggering and ready to die
A heart so cold will always pretend.

Smile and sigh and wave and cry
Pretend that there's nothing wrong to hide
Roll over, and shake, and die
Because your lover is ready to leave you far behind.

Wednesday

Disabling and done crying im looking into my very own darkness
Knowing the person i became and how far im going i came to hate my darkness
Alone and diminishing in my own hell within four walls im learning how to fully control it
And knowing this i wipe the tears that rolled down past these broken chapped lips

Again im seeing myself at an angle i saw my figure 4 years ago
Again the pain burns so good affecting my fucking ego
Im getting more jaded and less satisfied and this fucking heart is growing cold
Im getting more betrayed and less applied to everyone, i know i'll die alone.

I fucking hate myself today
Because im the worst of all of them
I threw myself into hell today
Within these four walls with them

There is no future for someone who cries so much
There is only pain for the weaken at the heart
Stand up, move aside, and let another fool take your place.

I hate myself so much today
I hate myself alot today

In Denial

Im falling in denial
Who would clean up all of travesty's disease?
Slap on that smile
With that you'll make so much to please.

Another falling warrior
That used to be a friend
How can one stay so calm?
She's caught behind war's barrier
He's finding bliss through end
With a knife at his palm.

Im in denial
Watching two hearts be ripped with ease
They cant put up that smile
Their hearts are purple with disease.

The Outside

To tell myself over and over again to admit her to heart
Is to smoke until these lungs eventually decay
And so i have done what i had to do
Sitting outside watching dead bodies float down her river.

Could it have been while i was away my mind has fallen apart
And to let her in my frontiers despite their dismay?
Im alone and have no one to tell me what to do
Should i just jump into her river?

Already she's in here stomping down until i kneel
While she's away i try to recover
But my error is too close to pleasure
Im lost in too deep to the point where i say i love her.

And so i have lost all my senses to feel
While she fucks another
Again my error is way to close to pleasure
Again i should be the body most blue under the river.

Im lost and i have no friends to tell me what to do
Im lost and i have no one to help me out
Love is for the fools
Love can damage your health.