The Outside

To tell myself over and over again to admit her to heart
Is to smoke until these lungs eventually decay
And so i have done what i had to do
Sitting outside watching dead bodies float down her river.

Could it have been while i was away my mind has fallen apart
And to let her in my frontiers despite their dismay?
Im alone and have no one to tell me what to do
Should i just jump into her river?

Already she's in here stomping down until i kneel
While she's away i try to recover
But my error is too close to pleasure
Im lost in too deep to the point where i say i love her.

And so i have lost all my senses to feel
While she fucks another
Again my error is way to close to pleasure
Again i should be the body most blue under the river.

Im lost and i have no friends to tell me what to do
Im lost and i have no one to help me out
Love is for the fools
Love can damage your health.